Sometimes when I think about what I’m doing (with instagram, my blog, my career….everything), I start to wonder about my WHY. Why do I do what I…do? What is the purpose behind a post, behind a career move, or behind. something I SAY? Is it for me? Is it for others? WHAT IS THE POINT?? Anyone else?
Over the past few months, I’ve really been able to sit with those thoughts. While it might be insanely uncomfortable, its honestly what I needed. I feel the constant pressure of having to “prove myself”, but I guess, we all do, don’t we?
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With social media, the rat race never ends. Always be better, grow more, want, want, want. With dance…the same thing! With my career…. the same thing! But what REALLY matters?
I heard a sermon a while back talking about needing to fully surrender EVERYTHING you had to God. Your job, relationships, what you say, what you do, money, literally, everything. Now, if you grew up in church or attend one now, this might not be that monumental. Of course!!! BUT, if you take a step back and actually think about that….it is really difficult to implement that practice into your busy schedule.
There have been so many moments in my life where I literally just said, “Okay, God. TAKE IT! Whatever you want, I’ll do.”. And in those moments, there was just such relief. And, honestly, I was just amazed by what happened because I gave it all to God.
Its funny then, when we forget to do that and wonder why we feel so stuck. Why we feel so empty. And why we feel so…pointless. We are working for US or for the approval of others or whatever your factor may be…anything BUT God.
ESPECIALLY with my new transition in life (getting married and moving 10 hours away…), I have had a really exhausting time completely surrendering to God. I keep trying to put things in my hands and focus on what I can control. What I can see. What I can physically DO to create the best life possible. And while working hard is a good trait, it can also be blinding.
What would happen to your career if you just completely surrender it to God? Would it flourish? Would it completely tank so that you move on to the career God wants for you (haha)? I often times find myself forcing my way into something that I truly think is “right for me”….but ohhhhhh how I actually know NOTHING. And that can be so hard to separate.
Have you ever been in a situation where you want so badly to give God all the control…but then your control freak-ness comes out and you only want to give him a little and force the rest?
What I’ve done (and am currently doing) in these situations is I take a step back from the situation, and take some time away from it. Whether that is a few hours or a few weeks….whatever is needed to separate. Reading the Bible also REALLY helps me hear God.
What do you do?
